On Focus

Last night, C. and I went to Yoga on Tap, where we practiced some particularly intense yoga (problematically intense, honestly) that ended with the instructor guiding us to set a goal for the rest of the week.

My goal: More focus.

I get so distracted so easily, and it's very frustrating at times. Teaching is a good career for me, because there's always a bunch of stuff I need to do, so I can jump around. But sometimes that jumping around just gets out of hand, and I wind up getting nothing accomplished.

Cue: this semester.

So this week I'm working on focusing. Focusing my mind, my money, my energies on tasks that are both necessary and fulfilling. Focus my thoughts and quieting my mind so I can continue my focus.

Step one: paying bills and setting up recurring payments so I can stop having to juggle 1,000 due dates in my head.

Step two: sit at my desk and actually get work done in my home office. So often I sit at my home desk and just flit around without accomplishing anything. But it's the best seat in the house, and I need to make it a focused, productive space rather than just a pretty corner of our spare room.

Step three: focus on my relationship and nurture my dynamic with C. We've been struggling through some stuff lately, and I really need to work on being a better partner. There's a line from The Perks of Being a Wallflower that really resonates with me: "We accept the love we think we deserve." It's so, so true, and I've realized that I need to work on giving my partner the best love I can, because he deserves good love. And I need to continue to believe I deserve a happy, healthy relationship and not just settle for okay. We're not okay, we're awesome. I just need to work on maintaining that awesomeness more. Relationships are a lot of work, y'all.

Step four: focus. on. my. job. Get the grades done, get the classes caught up. Get my shit together. Stop procrastinating on the parts of my job I don't like, so I'll have more time to do the parts I do like.

Step five: finish planning my next round of Fit Girl so I can end my 20s in the best shape of my life. Fit Girl Boot Camp, here I come!

There it is! My map for the remainder of my week; with any luck, I'll be able to focus and conquer my steps.

And, speaking of focus, now I must get back to grading. One step at a time, one paper at a time.